"Ain't No Other Man" REMIXED!

So I started listening to the new Christina Aguilera single, “Ain't No Other Man” (remixed of course) which tell you just what kind of mental state I was in two hours ago. Read as: riding the buzz of the first weekend of school and the bubbly feeling that I get when I stay up till 1:00 AM several nights in a row. Good times. And it hit me that the words had come back into my head.

This requires some backstory. I write poetry for preference and bloging has kinda filled the hours between bouts of poetry. It's been a while since I last hammered out any kind of poem, let alone a good one, and I was really excited to grab my notepad and scribble out a draft of a poem about color. It isn't anything to jump for joy about but it the first poetry I've written in a while and it feels damn good.

The other weird thing about tonight was the fact that I got myself elected to one of the school clubs I belong to. Now I had intended to run for office, fail, and proceed to install a bevy of friends who had all agreed to put me on the executive board later. So it was quite a surprise to win and be able to enact some of the changes I had in mind directly. Very cool.

I think I'll touch on the merits of being high energy. When I was giving my speech, I kept flashing back to that unfortunate clip of Howard Dean losing his mind on national television. How is it possible that a politician, who makes their entire life off of image and record, flub it up so badly. Now don't get me wrong. I'd rather have a Dean than a Bush any day. In fact, there are aspects of Dean's little shriek that are well worth noting. In a field of quiet, calm men who know how to work a crowd, Dean stood out as a high energy maverick who put down his own tracks. That kind of energy is what the U.S. Political system has been missing in my opinion. People, while adamant about their own agendas, do not have a fanatical support for any one cause or even a set of causes. Not to mention the fact that most politicians are more concerned with their own re-election than any values that they based their campaign on. It really is quite sad.

I love speaking up and it's even better when people listen. So listen up or speak out. You can't join in if you don't know what's going on and you can't do what you want unless you get people to hear you out.

That's the story!

Muah!
Lyrinoir

Bad Daybreak

08/25/06
2:00 AM

So I've been crying for the better part of four hours. But I've also spent that time with friends so the crying has been very internalized. The effect of which is that my friends think I'm tired and grumpy when I'm really just sad and a little confused. I was watching a movie, V for Vendetta, and the guy setting next to me seemed to be sending me the subtle, “I'm interested” vibe but I was kinda engrossed in the movie so I'm not really sure. This is the second time I've thought this guy was giving me vibes and I don't honestly know what to do about it. On the one hand, I'm totally in love with Aaron in a way I didn't think I could be, as evidenced by the fact that I spent the last four hours in self-absorbed grief. On the other hand, Aaron is miles away and I won't see him until October and a distracting fling to fill the void might be just what the doctor ordered.

The most surprising thing about this is that I'm having this thought at all. I didn't think there was anyone else who could even come close to arousing my interest but here is a sweet, sensitive guy with a penchant for gaming and Anime who seems to be coming on to me.

Of course, I could be overreacting and he could just be interested in me because I'm interesting and not in any sexual way. But that didn't stop me from stopping myself dead in my tracks and really questioning what the hell is going on. And now I really can't type anymore because the tears are combining with the fact that I'm tired as all hell and I need sleep. More later.

8/26/06
6:20 PM

After some time and sleep everything makes much more sense. Or at least appears to. I guess I was probably blowing the whole thing out of proportion. At the same time, reading what I wrote above, I can't help but feel I'm shoving trash under the carpet instead of cleaning up.

And I also hate that I dropped a whole post about my personal relationship issues. More meaty stuff later.

Muah!
Lyrinoir

And... Again!

Summer is coming to an end and I have started the packing process so I can head back to school. I guess I'd just like to touch on two things and then I'll probably not post till I've gotten settled.

First on my agenda, and my most pressing concern in the immediate and direct future, is my new roommate. I know absolutely nothing about him. My school doesn't employ any kind of survey for matching potential roommates. So when my friend and I botched our applications, I ended up with Johny Somebody who won't return my phone calls! Or I have the wrong number.

Second, and by far the more important issue in the long run is trouble with relationships. Long distance relationships to be precise. I'm leaving Aaron back home when I leave tomorrow morning. While the relationship has only be going on for 3 weeks, I can't help but feel as if I'm leaving a long term tryst. What we've had can only be described as a whirlwind relationship I was thinking about what to write here for the longest time and I've found myself unable to put words to the emotions. For someone who thinks that his biggest asset is his ability to articulate himself, it's more than slightly unsettling to be unable to write about something, let alone something I feel so strongly about.

As for what's happening, we're trying the long distance thing. I don't know how it's going to work out but I'll be damned if I'm going to let this slip through my fingers. I know that I'm a hopeless romantic but I really do believe that he and I could be soulmates. It's rushed and probably premature but I can't help how I feel about the whole thing. At any rate, I'm very shook up about leaving and the whole business has cast a bit of a dark shadow on going back to school.

I guess I'll just see how things turn out.

Muah!
Lyrinoir

Romance

I've always been a romantic. Which may be part of the reason that most of my relationships have ended badly. I would hold up what I had to the great romances of history and literature and become disappointed. So I kind of gave up on love. It wasn't that I though love or relationships were useless, it was just that I would constantly push my standards higher and higher so that the only thing left was perfection. So when I met Aaron, I though he was too good to be true. Nineteen year old male who's interests include Anime, online gaming and Terry Pratchett and cute to boot. And things just fell into place. He came over, we hit it off and now I can't get enough of him.

It's amazing what just a few days of being in a relationship has done to me. I feel literally lighter and more relaxed all the time. Just being around him makes me happier then I've been in a long time. Part of me knows that I'm making him better than he is; that I'm pushing the whole experience up to the point of that perfection which I crave but at the same time there is something so true about what I'm feeling. I can't put my finger on it but it is almost enough to make me believe in destiny. It's all too perfect.

So that's what's been going on. I don't know what is going to happen next but whatever it is, I know it's going to be great.

Muah!
Lyrinoir