Too Busy?
So in the past few weeks, I've found myself so incredibly busy that any facsimile of a personal life that I had, has pretty much evaporated. Replaced with my new project, Master Electrician for Hamlet, and to a lesser degree, school work.
In a moment of lucidity last night, I came to the realization that I hadn't thought about romance in quite a while. For me this is a strange thing, not because I am obsessed with love, but because it is something that fascinates me, especially in myself. So I frequently make time to reflect on how I'm feeling.
It occurred to me, that the busy schedule, while complicating my life immensely, had also simplified it, by removing all traces of normal human emotion from my daily life. In retrospect, I think this is both a good and a bad thing.
On the one hand, being able to focus on work for two weeks was essential, both for myself and for the projects I was working on. In addition, I feel that at the moment, I have achieved some every sought after perspective on a number of things.
As for the bad, not taking the time to analyze myself has left me a bit blind to my own emotional state. Something that reared it's head on Thursday during our Tech run. I locked myself into an emotionless robot mode to prevent a great deal of unpleasant anger and even rage from disrupting the process.
I like living simply, but if you don't take the time to do the little complicated things that keep you going, they can come back and bite you in the ass.
I guess I've also found myself hitting the Valentine's Day blues about a week and a half late, mostly because I was too busy during the actual holiday to register the unpleasant sensation of being single again. It's not a bad feeling. Just a sobering one.
On a completely separate note, this entry marks my 100th post onto this blog. As milestones go, it's not much, but I guess I'm happy to have reached it. Thanks for reading.
Muah!
Lyrinoir
In a moment of lucidity last night, I came to the realization that I hadn't thought about romance in quite a while. For me this is a strange thing, not because I am obsessed with love, but because it is something that fascinates me, especially in myself. So I frequently make time to reflect on how I'm feeling.
It occurred to me, that the busy schedule, while complicating my life immensely, had also simplified it, by removing all traces of normal human emotion from my daily life. In retrospect, I think this is both a good and a bad thing.
On the one hand, being able to focus on work for two weeks was essential, both for myself and for the projects I was working on. In addition, I feel that at the moment, I have achieved some every sought after perspective on a number of things.
As for the bad, not taking the time to analyze myself has left me a bit blind to my own emotional state. Something that reared it's head on Thursday during our Tech run. I locked myself into an emotionless robot mode to prevent a great deal of unpleasant anger and even rage from disrupting the process.
I like living simply, but if you don't take the time to do the little complicated things that keep you going, they can come back and bite you in the ass.
I guess I've also found myself hitting the Valentine's Day blues about a week and a half late, mostly because I was too busy during the actual holiday to register the unpleasant sensation of being single again. It's not a bad feeling. Just a sobering one.
On a completely separate note, this entry marks my 100th post onto this blog. As milestones go, it's not much, but I guess I'm happy to have reached it. Thanks for reading.
Muah!
Lyrinoir
posted by Lyrinoir at 9:13 AM
1 Comments:
<3 you Forrest! I very much doubt I will meet anyone I will particularly want to date anytime soon. Also, I guess I am still slightly stuck on that one guy, ugh. Also, I'm really really sick and very out of it. I hope you have fun (as much as you can) with your new play and don't get sick!
Love,
Steph
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